TC is sad. On one hand he cannot take it lying down, on the other, he knows he has to take it. Left, I can't bear to give her up. Right, I can't bear to risk making her suffer again. Zuo3 You4 Wei2 Nan2. Up, I'm putting up a brave front. Down, I'm crying and stabbing my heart. Tan3 Te4 Bu4 An1. Consciously, I did not even have the courage to tell her my thoughts, ending up talking on unconstructive issues. Sub-consciously, I know I want her, and keep thinking of ways to win her back. Mei2 Yong4. Ahaha loser!Boo!